Dont Look back in Despair

Been putting off things that I really intended to do...
Procastination...
The Bane of the Individual's Existence
Which comes first?
Does one put off doing something because he procastinate and lost the will to fulfill the something intended or did he lost the will to do the something intended and thus procastinate?

I guess that in a way explains my consistency in doing work for PBM... I had so much things planned but I lose steam halfway, maybe because I felt lost or that i don't really feel belong... Tried to be professional but can't seem to bring myself to commit to it...
To the whole student body, I am sorry that I couldnt live to the expectations...
I cant bring myself to conduct in the best professional manner as promised by oath but it is something i will take along with me in understanding the dynamics of a volunteer organizations and the individuals that make it up...

On a brighter note, It was a suprise victory for me in the last NUS IVP because seriously, truthfully, I wasnt interested in competing but I guess it went a little well cos I end up with gold with luck and Him granting me His blessings, and so yeah now I have four medals in my stint as an NUS athlete under the banner of NUS Silat as well as under FASS...
Let me see...
IVP 2007 (NUS) - Gold
IVP 2006(NYP) - Silver
UM Invitational 2006 - Silver
Inter-Faculty Rugby (FASS) - Bronze
But the irony is that I am gaining weight and not getting any fitter...
If only I wrote this while the memories were still fresh in my mind, I would have been more spirited in writing my thoughts and the grandeur of the atmosphere, which made me realise how little time I have left with dear NUS...
The people, The Places, The Events, The Fun, The Laughter...
And I am left with less than one month in my transition to be a full-time working adult with different set of challenges and experiences....

May I not forget the memories of the past
That accompanied me through times of need
Which will lay close to my heart
Residing in the deepest comfort of my mind
May it be the memories of the past
That will accompany me through the times of need
As marks of lessons and reminders
To guide us forward towards the realization of our own might...

And I cant help but look back
And saw the changes that I made
And I cant help but look back
And saw the changes that was made
So I looked back
Wondering about the changes I made
So I looked back
Wondering what made the changes

Where lies foresight
Who holds the will
What drives us onwards
Mindless, Guided or Alone?

We cant help but change
Along with the tides of fates
That brushes us onwards with its rage
Leaving behind shells and pieces of ourselves

Hollow and Empty
or
Tracks to be followed?